The week have passed...and i've been trying to be stronger and happier, at least to look stronger. but i guessed it failed. still thinking about someone i should not think of. sigh... i'm getting weaker by the day, both emotionally and physically. guess the stress in my feelings caused the depression and thus the unhealthiness. even my hair stylist said i've gotten more white strands...ya i have noticed myself, together with outbreaks and falling sickish more frequently.
should be final... i'm talking about my academic future. think i've decided to accept the offer from the University of Sydney for my degree, Bachelor of Animal and Veterinary Bioscience. sounds chim right? haha! It's a 4 year degree commencing next march. so i'll see u guys less often... =( must come visit me k!
watched the dark knight this sun. not too bad, really! it wasn't like a typical superhero movie. much more realistic while comtemplating with the human nature. batman is not one with all those fake super powers and stuff, but he sure does have loads of money and high-tech gadgets! at first i thought two-face was going to live to be the next evil king in the sequel but he died. and the part where gore was about to happen, though knowing it was rated pg, i covered my eyes...haha, so useless right. but i just can't take gore lah. and all the money joker burnt, damn waste sia! don't want give me lah...hahaha.
till later! be happy always!
Monday, July 28, 2008
Saturday, July 19, 2008
chi bi aka red cliff
Yoz ppl! haha... finally not so emo le!
though i still feel emo at certain times of the week, at least it's not the whole week. i know that that's not me! i'm simply the cheerful sort so being emo shall ruin it all. i must be happy!
finally...rsm coa is over on mon! it was quite good actually. i mean, ppl commented on the videos and said that they were the main focus of the show and hence made the entire segment a success! looks like the video head/creative cum multimedia director did a fairly good job! haha...i know i bhb but credit shud be given when due ma... but mainly thanks to my technical director cos without the hands, the brains alone can't work..so thanks ernest!
watched chi bi on fri after book out, with zhenming, js, xm, junyi, and ed. haha. quite nice lah...except for the ending that said: "to be continued...", just as we were all hyped up and ready to watch the next battle in chi bi. haha. sat in the couple seat with ed cos when they bought e tix, no more other seats le. so i guess we were a couple for a while...hee.
oh ya... kf called in to cool k time on wed to wish ham hb! that was the first time i had my voice heard on international radio live! then ham came back on thurs and joked bout using my phone to call in again. and he really did. when it rang, he threw the phone back at me and asked me to make the dedication! haha...boy was i nevous when i was on air. i dedicated a beautiful girl from 200 pounds of beauty to all my friends!
haa...may try again next time, tang shin neun na neun ba bo im ni da! see ya soon! amm next week.
though i still feel emo at certain times of the week, at least it's not the whole week. i know that that's not me! i'm simply the cheerful sort so being emo shall ruin it all. i must be happy!
finally...rsm coa is over on mon! it was quite good actually. i mean, ppl commented on the videos and said that they were the main focus of the show and hence made the entire segment a success! looks like the video head/creative cum multimedia director did a fairly good job! haha...i know i bhb but credit shud be given when due ma... but mainly thanks to my technical director cos without the hands, the brains alone can't work..so thanks ernest!
watched chi bi on fri after book out, with zhenming, js, xm, junyi, and ed. haha. quite nice lah...except for the ending that said: "to be continued...", just as we were all hyped up and ready to watch the next battle in chi bi. haha. sat in the couple seat with ed cos when they bought e tix, no more other seats le. so i guess we were a couple for a while...hee.
oh ya... kf called in to cool k time on wed to wish ham hb! that was the first time i had my voice heard on international radio live! then ham came back on thurs and joked bout using my phone to call in again. and he really did. when it rang, he threw the phone back at me and asked me to make the dedication! haha...boy was i nevous when i was on air. i dedicated a beautiful girl from 200 pounds of beauty to all my friends!
haa...may try again next time, tang shin neun na neun ba bo im ni da! see ya soon! amm next week.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
EMO week
once again disappointed at myself for not being able to stand up for my own rights, and just sat there like idiot watching people claim credits for my hardwork. must i proclaim every single thing i do? i don't think that's necessary! i ain't no credit whore. but i truly think that one deserves being recognised for his efforts. guess my big flaw is my in-spokenness. is there such a word? i dun think so...haha. i meant the opposite of being outspoken lah. worthless ah me... must speak up for myself! yes i must! or i cannot compete in this society where everyone vibes for everything. sad to say i'm not actually an 'evil' person but have to be under such circumstances ba. sigh...
yup...received my devastation letter and it confirmed my sadness and dashed my last hope of staying in singapore for studies. it's final i guess. i'm talking about studying in NTU or NUS. despite multiple applications and appeals, they don't even want to give me a chance. come on... face it. it's my lousy grades that landed me in such a situation. i will always regret not working hard enough. but this has woken me up from my deep slumber and i will push myself no matter wad in uni to be on top. sidetrack...ANTM: " wanna be on top? nananananananana.." haha.sorry had to do it. but seriously, if a chance had been given to me, i'll grab it harder than anyone cos i've benn through just too much suffering to learn this. it was through the hard way i realised i wasn't as good as i thought and that hard work is of utmost importance. truly significant in one's success. and i'm not going to commit my mistake again. at least i'll never allow it ever again. it's too hard to go through. i've had it once and that's all. still suffering now, so i'm sure. for those who got in with ease, they may end up being complacent. and that could be their downfall. as they slacken, ppl like me who fought hard to get it will succeed. advise for u... the uaual ones. never give up. work on your mistakes in a humble manner. always xu1 xin1 xiang4 shang4, bu4 zhi3 xia4 wen4! wish me luck on my road to success and i wish u the same! Australia, i guess i'm coming soon! it'll be UQ or USyd...depending on which one i accept cos they already offered me a place there. hope i dun keep them waiting too long for my confirmation of acceptance into their school. thanks once again and see u soon!
yup...received my devastation letter and it confirmed my sadness and dashed my last hope of staying in singapore for studies. it's final i guess. i'm talking about studying in NTU or NUS. despite multiple applications and appeals, they don't even want to give me a chance. come on... face it. it's my lousy grades that landed me in such a situation. i will always regret not working hard enough. but this has woken me up from my deep slumber and i will push myself no matter wad in uni to be on top. sidetrack...ANTM: " wanna be on top? nananananananana.." haha.sorry had to do it. but seriously, if a chance had been given to me, i'll grab it harder than anyone cos i've benn through just too much suffering to learn this. it was through the hard way i realised i wasn't as good as i thought and that hard work is of utmost importance. truly significant in one's success. and i'm not going to commit my mistake again. at least i'll never allow it ever again. it's too hard to go through. i've had it once and that's all. still suffering now, so i'm sure. for those who got in with ease, they may end up being complacent. and that could be their downfall. as they slacken, ppl like me who fought hard to get it will succeed. advise for u... the uaual ones. never give up. work on your mistakes in a humble manner. always xu1 xin1 xiang4 shang4, bu4 zhi3 xia4 wen4! wish me luck on my road to success and i wish u the same! Australia, i guess i'm coming soon! it'll be UQ or USyd...depending on which one i accept cos they already offered me a place there. hope i dun keep them waiting too long for my confirmation of acceptance into their school. thanks once again and see u soon!
Sunday, July 6, 2008
ichiban sushi and gelare with dot7-2
went out with shihui, yenchun, yunling and guohao today. at ps, ate ichiban and gelare...not too bad. then went to far east to shop. haha...seem to shop more there now. dunno y... prob the clothes there more suitable for young ppl like me! not that ex also lah. only started checking out apparels, acessories, shoes, bags etc @ that place before this year's cny for new clothes, through a friend's recommendation. but it seems that most of my clothes have since then started to come mainly from there...haha. and everytime i go, i never fail to buy something back from there. that's not my usual self! i control myself a lot and try to minimise spending. and i'm definitely not the type who must get something whenever i go out or enter a mall/shop. i rather opposite of that, buying only practical things. dunno y that's happening now though. haha!
did u read my previous blog? it's kinda funny after reading it. it's so long! so naggy ah me! ok...see ya soon!
did u read my previous blog? it's kinda funny after reading it. it's so long! so naggy ah me! ok...see ya soon!
A big THANKS for everything
really really appreciate all those ( kf james ham +++) who have helped me pass my horrid week, although i'm sure more to come. iguess i'm just too easily pricked as i have mentioned bout my sensitivity in my previous blog. i mean... i hate it but i can't help it. just have to be strong and hold on. advice for myself...speak up for wad i really feel and be confident. cos my shyness is destroying me! i always wanted to just be myself, even in front of other ppl or ppl of higher authority. i wanna be all comfortable without being fake. i guess the traditional chinese character is too strong in me as i dun dare speak in front of seniors, even when i'm in the right. m i too nice? nah...i never believe one can be too nice or holy...haha. shouldn't procrastinate too much already cos i've been wasting too much time doing that. though my intentions r good and the words that r supposed to come out of me is constantly waiting, they end my coming out too late! sigh. time to show my true bubbly character and stop hiding my inner hapinness! dun ever let e quiet side of u engulf u!
ok...enough of thinking too much. now to start to rant bout my life. i got conned by the fruit stall near my house. my parents always bought fruits from them but i guess they dun recognise me cos it's the first time i'm buying from ther myself. ok...so here goes the story. i was walking back home and passed by the usual durian stall i always bought from. but i decided to buy from the one my parents frequently buys from. so i asked my usual ques in chinese,
me: how much is one packet?
uncle A: depending on how many u're buying.
me: ??? i mean how much is one packet?
uncle A: depending on how much u're buying lah!
(so i guessed when u buy in bulk, it's cheaper. being a rather frequent durian buyer, it's usually 3 for $20, so i said "i'll take 3", and he immediately told another stall holder in hokkien ...)
uncle A (to uncle B): eh, give him 3...ah 4 lah 4 lah. give him one free. student mah... and this packet of cherries too.)
uncle A: wad kind u ant huh? sweet or bitter ones? i give u 2 sweet 2 bitter lah hor. (and in a smaller unheard tone)... one for $30.
me: (i was so shocked when i heard e price!) er...i think just 2 enough lah.
uncle A: aiyah...nevermind lah. take 3 lah. all very good one...this batch. i give u another one packet free and this packet of cherries too lor.
(there was immediate packing of goods into platic bags before i could say anything. i kept saying i just wan 2 but uncle B ignored and just kept packing)
me (to uncle B): er, uncle ah, really dun wan lah, just two will do.
uncle B: (ignoring wad i just said) i give u 2 sweet 2 bitter...i give u more flesh one ah. uh...u see u see (and he showed me a 'more fleshy' packet of durian. despite my constant rejection of the other offers, as i emphasized i only wanted e 2 durian packets...)
uncle B: (he suddenly walked to the other side) eh, today's jackfruit very sweet, give u 2 packets for just $10 lah. half give half sell lah)
(ya right... sounded so nice. i was liked...er, i didn't even look at the jackfruits!)
me: uncle...er really really dun wan lah. at home got a lot of fruits already.... really dun wan. really dun wan!)
uncle B: aiyah just take lah. nah...altogether....$130.
(shocking right! i was like...wad?!?! fruits for $130?! did i hear correctly???)
me: wah so expensive ah? i dun have enough money leh. help me take out a few lah.
uncle B: we accept nets one leh.
me: i really dun have so much money.
uncle B: ya lah... can accept nets one.
me: i really dun have enough! dun have nets.(faked it)
uncle B: then how much u have now?
me : (i looked into my wallet) er...about $60. (dun know y i so honest)
uncle B (scratches his head and to uncle A): eh...he only got $60 leh.
uncle A: oh...can accept nets one leh!
me: i really dun have enough! i'm a student u know?!
uncle B: (sighs loudly and starts to unpack, taking out all the fleshy durians and constantly opening the packets to check that the 2 he was selling me were normal ones. he also removed wadeva uncle A wanted to give me. well, understandable lah. so he removed 2 of the more fleshy durian packets, the cherries, and the 2 jackfruit packets that i didn't even want in the first place. he placed back the 2 normal durian packets into a plastic bag and gave it to me one handed without looking at me and saying $60)
me:( i dug my wallet and counted the money while he kept eyeing my money. i had exactly $61, and that's all the cash in my wallet. so i gave him the whole stack. he said thank you in a ungrateful, unwilling tone without looking at me and just immediately turned to tend to other customers. i stood there waiting for my $1 change but he never came back. after some time, i decided not to wait already, thinking he would turn a blank face anyway. so i left and headed home. i know me not finding him to get back my change is dumb and my fault but forget it. i was in far too much pain having just given away all the cash in my wallet, just for durians. i have never bought such expensive durians before. no doubt they were good, after i tried them at home, yet the sight of my empty wallet upsets me.)
sigh... wad can i say. golden durians... haha.
ok...enough of thinking too much. now to start to rant bout my life. i got conned by the fruit stall near my house. my parents always bought fruits from them but i guess they dun recognise me cos it's the first time i'm buying from ther myself. ok...so here goes the story. i was walking back home and passed by the usual durian stall i always bought from. but i decided to buy from the one my parents frequently buys from. so i asked my usual ques in chinese,
me: how much is one packet?
uncle A: depending on how many u're buying.
me: ??? i mean how much is one packet?
uncle A: depending on how much u're buying lah!
(so i guessed when u buy in bulk, it's cheaper. being a rather frequent durian buyer, it's usually 3 for $20, so i said "i'll take 3", and he immediately told another stall holder in hokkien ...)
uncle A (to uncle B): eh, give him 3...ah 4 lah 4 lah. give him one free. student mah... and this packet of cherries too.)
uncle A: wad kind u ant huh? sweet or bitter ones? i give u 2 sweet 2 bitter lah hor. (and in a smaller unheard tone)... one for $30.
me: (i was so shocked when i heard e price!) er...i think just 2 enough lah.
uncle A: aiyah...nevermind lah. take 3 lah. all very good one...this batch. i give u another one packet free and this packet of cherries too lor.
(there was immediate packing of goods into platic bags before i could say anything. i kept saying i just wan 2 but uncle B ignored and just kept packing)
me (to uncle B): er, uncle ah, really dun wan lah, just two will do.
uncle B: (ignoring wad i just said) i give u 2 sweet 2 bitter...i give u more flesh one ah. uh...u see u see (and he showed me a 'more fleshy' packet of durian. despite my constant rejection of the other offers, as i emphasized i only wanted e 2 durian packets...)
uncle B: (he suddenly walked to the other side) eh, today's jackfruit very sweet, give u 2 packets for just $10 lah. half give half sell lah)
(ya right... sounded so nice. i was liked...er, i didn't even look at the jackfruits!)
me: uncle...er really really dun wan lah. at home got a lot of fruits already.... really dun wan. really dun wan!)
uncle B: aiyah just take lah. nah...altogether....$130.
(shocking right! i was like...wad?!?! fruits for $130?! did i hear correctly???)
me: wah so expensive ah? i dun have enough money leh. help me take out a few lah.
uncle B: we accept nets one leh.
me: i really dun have so much money.
uncle B: ya lah... can accept nets one.
me: i really dun have enough! dun have nets.(faked it)
uncle B: then how much u have now?
me : (i looked into my wallet) er...about $60. (dun know y i so honest)
uncle B (scratches his head and to uncle A): eh...he only got $60 leh.
uncle A: oh...can accept nets one leh!
me: i really dun have enough! i'm a student u know?!
uncle B: (sighs loudly and starts to unpack, taking out all the fleshy durians and constantly opening the packets to check that the 2 he was selling me were normal ones. he also removed wadeva uncle A wanted to give me. well, understandable lah. so he removed 2 of the more fleshy durian packets, the cherries, and the 2 jackfruit packets that i didn't even want in the first place. he placed back the 2 normal durian packets into a plastic bag and gave it to me one handed without looking at me and saying $60)
me:( i dug my wallet and counted the money while he kept eyeing my money. i had exactly $61, and that's all the cash in my wallet. so i gave him the whole stack. he said thank you in a ungrateful, unwilling tone without looking at me and just immediately turned to tend to other customers. i stood there waiting for my $1 change but he never came back. after some time, i decided not to wait already, thinking he would turn a blank face anyway. so i left and headed home. i know me not finding him to get back my change is dumb and my fault but forget it. i was in far too much pain having just given away all the cash in my wallet, just for durians. i have never bought such expensive durians before. no doubt they were good, after i tried them at home, yet the sight of my empty wallet upsets me.)
sigh... wad can i say. golden durians... haha.
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