unwanted...

i feel so lost this week! like no one bothers bout me. i guess i'm a little attention seeking so when everyone's talking while i'm not, i feel so alone! i'm upset when ppl talk behind my backs, backstabs, causing such great misunderstandings among all.

i think i'm a bit over-sensitive, schizo or something. when ppl talk i keep thinking whether they're talking bout me. and i cant take it when ppl give me unconstructive critisms, and they insult u for eveything that u r...for nothing. it can be really hurtful when it comes from a close friend, even when it comes as a joke. but i'll understand...someday. i appreciate truthfulness but probably not in a harsh manner. i dun think ppl should ever mock someone else for a physical appearance, attributes or talents. once in a while is fine i guess, otherwise it'll sound real after some time. know ur limits.

btw, if u're reading this and thinking this is for u, trust me it's not. it's just wad i've been feeling all this years and my vent up frustrations. anyone who gets pricked by this msg, i'm sorry but i guess u have to change to become a better person k!

yay! passed my FTT and took pdl. must start learning how to drive loh! still v busy with rsm vid. even bringing work home to do lah. still got loads to edit and stuff. work hard team rsm! or oh!JESM. haha...

buying something for my tm com cos he's getting married! my tm was thinking of a puzzle wtih frames. cute right. we piece it together to show our sincerity as well as show how a marriage requires time and effort to piece together to get the final beautiful product. we saw one cartoon kids kissing under a starry night one for just $1.50 leh. quite nice ut we went on to look for better ones cos i tot it was rather cheapo and hence may be of inferior quality, like e edges will tear easily or fade or something. i know it's the heart that matters, but still my heart is just too kind to allow lousy goods. haha! think i'll do the same for fiona's wedding.]

ok...see u soon! and be happy always!